Why Are Our Own Patterns So Hard to See?
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by Rúna Magnúsdóttir, Leadership Coach, Keynote Speaker & Founder of Beyond Boxes Index
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AI & Self-Awareness | #004
Why Are Our Own Patterns So Hard to See?
I've always been a bit suspicious of traditions.
Especially the ones that seem to make people miserable.
Christmas was a perfect example.
Every year, I watched perfectly intelligent people exhaust themselves doing things they didn't even seem to enjoy, simply because that's what Christmas was supposed to look like.
The endless Christmas parties.
The frantic search for the perfect gifts.
The cleaning of cupboards no Christmas guest would ever open.
And, of course, the seventeen different types of Christmas cookies—because apparently, sixteen would mean Christmas was cancelled.
And I couldn't understand it.
If a tradition no longer gives you joy, why keep doing it?
So naturally, I created my own tradition.
Never do Christmas the same way twice.
Different food. Different decorations. Different ideas.
One year, we even drew the Christmas tree on the wall.
I thought I was rebelling against tradition.
It took me years to realise that rebellion had become my tradition.
Apparently, I Had a Tradition After All
Then, one Christmas, I read an article in which people shared their favourite Christmas memories.
They talked about the traditions they had grown up with.
The things they looked forward to every year.
The same food.
The same decorations.
The same little rituals that somehow became part of what Christmas meant to them.
And it made me wonder.
What would my children say?
After all my years of making sure Christmas was never quite the same as the year before, what traditions would they remember?
So I asked them.
Their answer?
A particular kind of sweets I had apparently bought several Christmases in a row.
That was it.
All those years of creative rebellion.
Different food. Different decorations. Even a Christmas tree drawn on the wall.
And apparently, my great contribution to family Christmas traditions was... sweets.
But their answer made me see something I hadn't seen before.
I had a tradition after all.
My tradition was to avoid traditions.
My pattern was to make sure I didn't repeat the pattern.
And that's when I started wondering:
Can doing things differently become just another way of doing the same thing?
The Patterns We Call Personality
The strange thing about patterns is that they're much easier to see when they belong to someone else.
We notice the colleague who always needs to have the last word.
The leader who says they want honest feedback—but somehow makes everyone regret giving it.
The family member who is on the verge of a nervous breakdown by December 23rd but still insists on making all seventeen types of Christmas cookies.
We see their patterns.
Sometimes with impressive clarity.
Our own?
That's a little more complicated.
Because the patterns closest to us don't always feel like patterns.
They feel like us.
That's just who I am.
I wasn't someone who followed traditions.
I was someone who challenged them.
Someone who did things differently.
And doing things differently has served me well throughout my life.
It has helped me question assumptions, challenge traditions, and try things other people might not try.
Years later, when Nick and I began exploring what would eventually become the Beyond Boxes™ methodology, I started seeing my Christmas rebellion differently.
Doing things differently was one of my Good Boxes—a pattern that served me well, until I stopped noticing when it didn't.
I began to see the difference between:
I choose to do things differently.
and:
I have to do things differently.
That's a very small shift in language.
But not necessarily a small shift in freedom.
The box that once gave me freedom could start taking freedom away.
Not because doing things differently was wrong.
But because I was no longer really choosing.
I was repeating.
Doing the opposite every time is still doing the same thing.
And perhaps the patterns that are hardest to see are the ones that look like our strengths.
We call them our personality.
Our leadership style.
The way we do things.
Just who I am.
Sometimes they are.
And sometimes, they might be boxes we've lived in for so long that we've stopped noticing the walls.
Knowing Is One Thing. Noticing Is Another.
I can know that I tend to do things differently.
I can understand why.
I can even laugh about the Christmas tree we once drew on the wall.
But none of that necessarily means I'll notice the exact moment when:
I choose to do things differently
quietly becomes:
I have to do things differently.
And perhaps that's where awareness begins to matter.
Not because awareness magically removes our patterns.
It doesn't.
Not because it guarantees we'll make a different choice.
It doesn't do that either.
We might notice the box and choose exactly the same thing.
But there's a difference between repeating something because we choose to...
and repeating it because we've stopped noticing that there was ever a choice.
Perhaps that's why our own patterns are so hard to see.
The ones closest to us don't announce themselves as patterns.
They don't say:
Hello. I'm an unconscious behaviour you've been repeating for the past twenty years.
That would be helpful.
Instead, they sound much more familiar:
That's just who I am.
Back to the Christmas Tree
So this Christmas, if I want to draw another tree on the wall, I might.
I might even bake seventeen types of Christmas cookies.
Although, let's not get carried away.
But perhaps I'll ask myself one question first:
Am I choosing this because it brings us joy—or because being different has quietly become another tradition of my own?
Reykjavík, July 13th 2026
Rúna Magnúsdóttir (aka Runa Magnus) is a global keynote speaker, leadership coach, and creator of Beyond Boxes Index™ — a Leadership Energy Intelligence diagnostic exploring how culture, pressure, and unconscious social “boxes” shape the way we lead, behave, and see ourselves.
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Our own patterns are often difficult to see because they don't feel like patterns. They feel like us.
The behaviours closest to our identity can become so familiar that we stop questioning whether we are consciously choosing them or simply repeating them.
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We have distance from other people's behaviour but live inside our own.
We can often clearly notice when someone else repeats the same reaction, avoids the same conversation or falls into the same habit.
Our own patterns, however, may feel like personality, values or simply who I am.
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Yes. A strength can become limiting when it shifts from something we consciously choose to something we feel compelled to repeat.
The important distinction is between I choose to do this and I have to do this.
A pattern can serve us brilliantly in one context and limit us in another.
In the Exploring Boxes: The Good, The Bad & The Ugly, we talk about being Awake - Aware - Attuned -
A Good Box is a pattern, behaviour or way of thinking that serves us well and may be experienced as a strength. The challenge is that even a Good Box can become limiting if we stop noticing when it no longer serves the situation.
The purpose is not to escape our boxes, but to become aware of them so we have more choice.
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Start by noticing behaviours or reactions you repeat across different situations. Pay particular attention to statements such as That's just who I am, I always do this, or I could never do that. Sometimes the patterns hardest to see are the ones we have mistaken for our identity.
Tools such as the Five Energies Vitality Test and the Beyond Boxes Index™ (BBI) can also help make invisible patterns more visible. The Five Energies explore the different energies that influence how we experience and respond to the world, while the Beyond Boxes Index™ helps identify your Good Box, Bad Box and Ugly Box—revealing recurring behavioural patterns and potential blind spots.
These tools don't define who you are.
They give you another mirror through which to notice what you may be too close to see.
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Yes. Self-assessment tools can provide another perspective on patterns that may be difficult to recognise from the inside.
The Five Energies Vitality Test explores five dynamic energies that can influence how people experience situations, relate to others and respond under different circumstances.
The Beyond Boxes Index™ (BBI) is designed to help people identify their Good Box, Bad Box and Ugly Box, recurring behavioural patterns and potential blind spots. Rather than defining or labelling people, the purpose is to make patterns more visible so they can become part of conscious reflection and choice.
You can explore the Beyond Boxes Index™ at bebby.ai
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